FOUR RITUALS
FOR MY SADNESS

"Four Rituals for my Sadness" is a series of four, tasked based performances each taking place in various natural environments. Dealing with themes of despair, hope, and suicidality, each performances was recorded in the month of July, 2023 four years after Neal's final attempt at self-harm. In each performance Neal faces a simple obstacle: a punching bag, a log, a ladder, and a storm which he must confront. The simplicity of each task in addition to its strenuousness is symbolic of the effort it takes to simply stay alive in the midst of despair.